Faith

When You Reach Your Wit’s End.

I watched my dreams, goals and aspirations crash before my eyes.

I always suffered from anxiety, especially as a young adult. Balancing my personal life, school, home and relationships was hard work. I had great inexplicable fear of the unknown. I worried about what would become of me if I failed to get excellent grades.

Furthermore, I worried at what would happen when I finished University. Will I graduate with good results? Will I get a good job? Will I be good enough? Will anyone ever marry me?

I have always wanted to be independent and self_reliant. I pushed myself to perfection and thus the anxiety. I was always trying to figure out things and playing my cards right. Things happening out of my plan would depress me.

As fate would have it, I did not pass my senior six very highly. That troubled me greatly. With those grades, it would be difficult finding a placement at a good University_if not impossible.

For as long as I could recall, I had always wanted to go to a particular University. It was indeed the center of excellence in the heart of Africa. When they offered me a diploma course, I took it. However, I despised the fact that I was doing a Diploma. It didn’t feel good enough, and I felt like I was suddenly behind all my classmates and agemates. It suddenly felt like an eternity until I would get done with my diploma and degree. All those wasted years and money.

At the University, my business course was 75% maths. I didn’t hate maths, but I preferred to have as little interaction with it as possible. Regardless, I gave it my best shot. I had GPA 3.33 after my first semester there. Not bad. However, during that Christmas holiday, I met with a few people and before I knew it, I was offered an opportunity to change courses. One lady suggested that I join a certain Institution, a School of Journalism and Mass Communication.
I did.

It took me a long time to finally change my mind about the diploma. Actually, it took a certain guy that was interested in me. He had dropped out of school and was working. He convinced me that it was a privilege and a blessing that I was doing a diploma. “Many people can’t even afford it”, he said. With time, I believed him and I embraced it.

Though I took longer than I expected to graduate due to COVID, I actually realized that the Pandemic was a blessing in disguise. Instead of two, it took me three and a half years. During the pandemic, I worked at a popular radio station. I also spent more time on my Internship and Research projects. Finally when schools reopened, we had a graduation ceremony at school. My highest GPA was 4.80 and I had a 4.15 CGPA.

Everything I had wanted to achieve with my degree, I got with this diploma and more:

  1. I wanted to graduate with excellent results, and I did.
  2. I wanted to have a job and work before graduation, and I did.
  3. I had so much time to grow, learn and get well acquainted with the world outside of school.

To be honest, I don’t think I would have achieved all this if I had stayed at the University. While there, they kept us quite busy. We had a class schedule of morning to late evening and on weekends. There was no time for me to get a job or get involved in any activity that brought in money.

Looking back, I am so grateful to God that I never got my way. This other route taught me humility and to trust God every step of my campus journey. In the end, everything pieced out perfectly. I feel so happy and fulfilled and everyone around me can testify that I am a better version of myself.

Trust God when it doesn’t make sense;-especially when it doesn’t make sense.

The End.

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8 Comments

  1. Ayebare Patience Joy

    April 15, 2022 at 3:26 pm

    Wow…so true.
    It’s easier for us to trust God when we have a clear vision of how it will end but when we don’t, we complain, whine, throw pity parties for ourselves and forget that he said, “Everything works together for our good”.
    This is an amazing piece, thanks for giving us a glimpse into your story.

  2. Echoes Over Coffee

    April 15, 2022 at 6:37 pm

    Thank you so much for reading.
    I appreciate the feedback.

  3. Blake Ardis

    April 23, 2022 at 10:59 am

    Pretty! This was an extremely wonderful article. Thank you for providing this info.

    1. EchoesOverCoffee

      April 23, 2022 at 5:25 pm

      Thank you so much Blake for reading and for the reply. It’s lovely getting some feedback.

  4. esther tusiime

    May 16, 2022 at 9:01 am

    Amazing…thanks for sharing.

    1. Echoes Over Coffee

      May 16, 2022 at 9:44 am

      Thank you for reading and for commenting.

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    January 7, 2023 at 8:33 pm

    Very good blog! Do you have any helpful hints for aspiring writers?

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    1. Echoes Over Coffee

      January 16, 2023 at 2:13 pm

      Thank you for the feedback. As for hints for anyone that wants to start writing, the only advice I can give is, ‘Start. Just start’. It doesn’t matter so much where you begin. Just start. And give it your best shot. If it’s something you enjoy doing, then you will effortlessly excel at it. Just remember to stay committed. Consistency is key.

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