In Just Nine Days

Nowadays, it is not abnormal for people to meet and bond over something as trivial as a tweet. In this story, that’s exactly what happened. I reacted to guy’s tweet and one thing led to another.

I once read that when God wishes to punish a man, he begins by taking away his wits. This feels just like it. I mean, here I am, miserable for two days now and I can not even explain why. All this misery over someone I never even met.

Truthfully, he was the complete opposite of what I often went for. Could we have been friends? Definitely, but nothing more than that.

At the time he came into my life, I had started seeing traces of depression. However, this guy was such an enigma that I snapped out of it. When he told me who he was and what he did, my mind got busy. I had to seriously consider my options and ask myself all the hard questions.

Why am I doing this? How is it beneficial? What are the implications of it going sour? Is this what I want for myself? Knowing him and what he represented; I knew that allowing him into my life was a huge risk. This was not your daily average kind of guy. Matter of fact, everything in my life just took a twist.

One thing about him, he was not a Christian. Don’t judge me. Having dated a Christian before, I had come to the conclusion that all men were the same. They all served shit for dessert. That being said, I would much rather be stabbed from the front than the back. At least you see it coming from a nonbeliever.

Intentional about not getting into more years of recovery, I was more cautious with this guy. No matter what people tell you, appearance matters. I had ignored this with my ex. Everyone that saw his pics went like, “Oh Nooo…… he’s a baby!” even when he was two years older than me. This is something I did not want a repeat of. I avoided younger men, even older ones who appeared younger.

Also, in the first relationship I had made my own decisions and then ran to God after everything started falling apart. This time, I asked from the start. God told me it was a bad idea.

This guy did not tick any of the above boxes but for reasons unknown to me, I did not walk away. After getting to know him, he seemed decent and well intentioned. Part of me sympathized with him. One time I actually cried buckets of tears when he opened up about something personal. Imagine my anguish when I later found out that he had lied to me? What a pity for me to have wasted my tears!

Mark you, this is someone I had only talked to for a couple of days and have never even met. Picture this:

In just nine days, you meet someone, get to know them, you care about them, they disappoint you and boom, they disappear. Just like that, you’re back to being alone. This is the story of my life. It is laughable the kind of guys that pursue me.

Honestly God, it’s about time you and I arranged a heart-to-heart. “You need to do a bit better with the match-making”. I am done with these charity cases. That ship must sail.

The End.

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