What Went Down -Part Three

I had to stop, pause and reboot. Not having my smartphone with me helped. I had to go back to the basics. I tried to rediscover who I was and what I loved before Jason wrecked my life.

What Went Down -Part One
What Went Down -Part Two

Lucky for me, the President declared the second full lockdown at about the same time. I worked once a week and spent 6 days home.

I spent most of my time in bed; mostly sleeping, eating and reading. I read the remaining 17 books of the Old Testament. That way, I completed a task I had started on of reading my Bible from cover to Cover. I also read several novels from my collection that I had not had time for before.

In addition, I read through my journals and report cards right from primary. I also pulled out cards and letters from my sponsors that I had preserved over the years.

Doing this helped me to rediscover myself, who I wanted to be and what I wished to achieve. I knew the girl I used to be deserved much better. I owed her more.

As the weeks passed, I was peaceful and happy. I liked being alone and undisturbed. At this time, my income had almost trippled. I was rich enough to afford anything I wanted. I was feeling great about myself and my life.

One day in office, I checked my email and found a job offer. In the email, I was requested to reach out to them on WhatsApp. I called Amelia and asked her to give my phone to a boda guy. She did and the man delivered it.

Now with my phone, people started calling and texting. I was back online after several months. There were also all sorts of theories about the time when I had gone silent. Some believed I had gotten pregnant. Others thought I had run off with a man and gotten married in secret. Majority thought I was battling depression. Honestly, it was disappointing hearing all that from people I thought knew me.

Though it had required a certain level of control, I maintained the communication gap between Jason and I. All we did was view each other’s statuses. It was the only remaining lifeline between us.

Two days to my birthday, he sent laughing emojis to a video I had posted. I ignored him. What was I supposed to do? Send laughing emojis back when my heart was frowning? It had been four months of zero communication and all he could do was just send teething emojis?

Looking at his text, I remember thinking to myself, “Where the fuck were you when I needed you most?” I just blueticked him and moved on with my life. Others had called and texted out of concern. Jason had done nothing. Not once did he even try finding out if I was alright.

Besides, if he had really wanted to talk, he would have sent a clear message. How hard was, ‘How are you?’

Alternatively, he could have called. But he did not. I was done lowering myself to his level. If he wanted me, he was going to rise up to my standard.

So, I waited. Five months. Seven months. Eleven months passed. During the wait, I never dated anyone. I just focused on God, my friends and making money.

I waited for a call and message that never came.

In March 2022, I made a year of us not meeting physically. I had vowed that if he had not tried to win me over by June 1, 2022; then I would walk away forever.

As it so turned out, I did not have to wait that long. Jason got married in April 2022. However, I only found out a month after the wedding.

The best part from all this was knowing that I could now walk away forever, without ever having to look back.

The End.

Disclaimer: All the names that feature in these stories are fictitious. They were made up to protect the identity and privacy of those involved.

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